so, i randomly ended up on this site of bloggers, not quite sure how. i am, however, getting a lot more hits! hello to all of you who've stumbled upon my pretty basic blog! i've been a bad girl, and haven't blogged in a long time... my apologies! in the meantime, enjoy what i've got, and drop me a line to say hi!
Around this time of year, in the lull between the frenzy of Christmas and the debauchery of New Years, I often indulge in remembering what my life was like throughout the year closing, and, 2006 was definitely a doozie!
This past year has challenged me, rewarded me, saddened me, enlightened me, and loved me beyond words. It feels like only a blink of an eye ago Rudy and I were making our way through orange county, both sick and in bed for most of the trip - while having cold stone ice cream with friends as many times as humanly possible! All of the sudden an entire year has come and gone, and its pretty freaky! Remember when as a kid, time was your worst enemy? It took foreverrrr until school let out for summer, then it took foreverrrrr for school to come back so you could hang with your friends! Class periods took foreverrrrrr to end so that you could run to the caf and watch your hunky crush from a far .. and now, as each year passes they pass with a vengeance! They zoom by you so quickly its as tho they were never even there..
My life has come (almost) full circle. If there's one thing that this year has taught me, its that though I thrive off it, I'm not the best while dealing with change. After 3 years of living in Vancouver, I finally feel at home. After almost 3 years of being with an amazing amazing person, I finally feel at peace with our beautiful relationship, and confident in letting someone in. I've gone from entrepreneur to public servant. I've actualized a few very substantial personal goals, and the feeling that brings is monumental! I finally feel like I've gained a really healthy perspective on what I want, where I want to be, and who I am. And I really love it, and me! It's funny, as children most of us are taught to be humble, modest, and to not be arrogant. We're (I'm) so conditioned that pride can be dangerous and/or offensive, that we (I) tend to forget to praise ourselves for what good we do (do). I feel like 2007 may be the year where that shifts.
This year has showed me so so much, and really knocked my socks off! I saw the wonders of wild BC first hand - camping on a rocky beach in the Harrison Hot Springs with nothing but a bikini and a shovel (eek!)... I watched my first girlfriend walk down the aisle, and was in awe of just how beautiful my loved ones are, and how my heart sings when I'm with them.. I held my newest nephew just 10 hrs after he came into this world. Its amazing that one day that little boy will grow to be tall, strong, smart, loving, and successful .. I can't wait to hold his hand through out that! I watched the sun set over the pacific ocean in Mexico, while etching my worries out in the sand and letting the ocean sweep them away.. I've decided to take my Masters Degree (!!!) and am SO stoked to be doing that! I'm also learning guitar! Who knew?! I found the most beautiful apartment, and have finally found a place to call home in Vancouver - and have already held some dangerous parties (yowza!) .. I met so many beautiful and inspiring people, and am super honoured to have done so.. and, again, this year I fell in love over and over again .. (sigh..)
This year was radical, and what's awesome is that each year just keeps getting better and better. As I fondly bid farewell to 2006, I welcome 2007 with open arms ..
seriously now. i've lived in vancouver for almost 3 years, and have yet to find myself a stand-up family doctor.
(the one i currently see is a cosmetic surgeon/gp ... she's so bloody botox'd i can barely tell whether her lips move while she talks to me!)
So, if you have a great, good, or even so-so family doctor, and is female (preferably), please pass their contact info my way. I'm a self-diagonosed borderline hypochondriac, so please please send me to someone good !! :)
omg! i finally did it! i broke up with my most problematic client! *cue the choir of cherubs singing hallelujah!*
ok.
life is .. uh... crazy. my life is crazy right now. absolutely fucking manic. maybe this is part of growing up, but my days zoom by, challenges plop themselves one on top of the other relentlessly. i have little time for myself, friends, family. and what time i do have seems to be stressed out!!! jebus! thankfully, i think the eye of the storm has hit, and will slowly start to pass. i took a big step (for me) today, and 'broke up' with one of my freelance clients. i dont want to get into specifics, but from day 1 she has been problematic and very high maintainance. i, being the non-confrontational-sheepish-wimpola that i am, had a hugely hard time say no, drawing boundaries (and sticking to them) and keeping on top of this client. this is why i need a partner in crime (enter rudy, stage left). he helped me see (after a very emotional client call this morning at the brink of day - she was the emotional one) that i dont need this kind of drama. sing it mary j! no more drama! she's out of my life - hopefully. ugh.. i still have the stink of that dirty call on my skin. blech!
good news:
1. we're still in our amazing place, and i love it love it love it! 2. we went swimming last night! rudy's cousin has a beautiful olypmic size pool in his condo and we went for a frolick and a steam last night! so much fun!! and swimming laps felt really good on my out of shape bod! 3. we had a wonderful thanksgiving weekend with rudy's family and some friends! i absolutely LOVE thanksgiving and think that its definitely my favourite holiday! (sorry MJ and Tanya for not making it to your place monday night, it was just such a busy weekend, and we were spending family time on the monday... i'd love to make your next one tho! keep me posted, and email ME not just rudy (he's unreliable with the joint emails) hope you had fun!) 4. my sister is almost due to have her baby! Pepper (his prenatal nickname) is due in 2 weeks, and I can't wait to meet him! 5. i stopped drinking coffee!!! 3 days, no coffee. and i'm good! (altho the 2nd day i went to sleep at 8pm and woke up at 730 am!) 6. its almost home time for me, and i'm stoked to see my family and friends back east. can't wait to shop in TO!! 1 more month! 7... i think thats it!
oh, i need a new computer bad... if you know of anyone who's looking to sell let me know! i'm kinda tight on moolah, so used might be the best for me!
life has been so hectic lately. starting with a whirlwind trip to our nation's capital... a 4 day trip to Ottawa - parliament specifically. i've never felt so patriotic, and proud to be a part of the machine that works for every beautifully complicated person in our beautifully complicated country. it was awesome to be back in ontario, but bizarre to not be in toronto. the air in ottawa was thick with electricity, smog, and heat. there were people on the streets at all times, pubs glowing with jazz, politics, and a tim hortons on every corner. jet lag aside, the trip was fantastic! then, back to vancouver to prepare for a very gruelling and quite monumental move. rudy and i finally shed our 1 bedroom hell hole and moved right on up to a beautiful 3 bedroom flat right in the heart of the west end. but, right in time for our big move i pulled a muscle in my back, and have been hopped up on muscle relaxants, stretching and advil. its getting a lot better, but the timing couldn't have been worse. i've been walking (hobbling) around like a little old lady, and making sure to bend with my knees. it was a great wake up call tho, and hit home how important health is. our move was a bit of an ordeal. it took the movers 6 hours from apartment to apartment. the old tenants didn't clean ANYTHING - talk about gross! our building is quite old, and so is the electricity. laptop and pc both got fried as a result, and all the work that wasn't backed up recently made both our lives flash by our eyes. scary shit! luckily, we're able to salvage most of the data on all of the hard drives, but holy fuck... back your work up people!! aside from work whooping my ass, and a hectic couple weeks, life couldn't be better! i'm stoked for you all to see our new place - it is so so so perfect, and we couldn't be happier! i get to see all my lovely ladies in about a month when i head back to TO for jennie's wedding... my newest little nephew will be born in about 3 weeks!! and my newest pseudo neice or nephew will be born shortly after (can't wait lauren!!), and then both my mom and my bff rayms will be heading back to Van with me to meet all the wonderful peeps who west coast it with me and jam it up on this side of the globe! STOKED!!
so, over the last couple of months some funny and strange things have been happening in the middle of the night, while i'm sleeping. it started out with simple sleep talk - random jibberish that i started to babble to poor little sleeping Rudy and to no one in particular. it then went to me waving at people in my sleep and saying 'hi!' and such.
from sleep talking i journeyed to sleep walking. i ended up waking up in the middle of our living room one night a few weeks ago strong in my resolve that i was in the wrong bed. i remember thinking that i was in the wrong bed with 2 other people, and i just had to get the hell out of there asap!
after that came the night where for no reason i jolted up, eyes open, and began shaking Rudy awake asking him if there was anyone else in our bed. that, no doubt, scared the shit out of him, and he checked around (kinda scared that there might actually BE someone else in our bed) and told me no, there wasn't. i then started to go back to sleep and told him to do the same!
well.. if all of that wasn't odd enough... last night apparently takes the cake... my poor freaked out boyfriend was woken up - yet again, by me, in the middle of the night... only this time, i was snapping my fingers to some jazzy beat that only i could hear - and i was completely asleep. he said that i must have been doing it for some time because it was loud and long enough to wake him up. he was waiting for me to start talking, but all i was doing was jammin in my head!
i don't know what's happening in the middle of the night.. but i'm seriously tempted to set up a cam or something... either Rudy is totally pulling my leg, or something funky is happening in my dreams...
